Saturday, October 30, 2010

This pretty much says it all...
I really AM stressing out. I've had my sketchbook for over a month now. It sits there in my studio..mocking me. Blank and cold and cream colored. I tortured it a bit the other day - tore a page out of it - and certain I heard it wince. That's what it gets for being blank, uninspiring and uppity. There are excited artists who are filling up the pages while mine sit empty and impatient. Oh yes, some of them have even taken their journals apart to reconfigure into something unusual and are now restitching them back together. And frankly..I want to SCREAM! I'm seeing how far behind I am and how uninspired..it's awful!
I went out on a limb and joined in the project and both life and my ideas have gotten the best of me. I can't watch this train leave the station without me! I have to finish this..I have to leave my mark behind. This sketchbook is my scream to the world, "Hey! I'm out here you know!" and if I miss out - well it will have been self-sabotage and that damn sketchbook knows it. I want to be a title in the Brooklyn Art Library..I want to be a book that becomes old and tattered that someday someone flips through only to become curious as to who I was and what I did and where I lived. It's a small piece of immortality (even if only for a time) at a time in my life when I'm not even sure that I'll be missed once I exit the planet.
And then I recalled a poem by Edgar Allen Poe (one of my favorites really) of a raven that mocked him much like my sketchbook. And I thought for a moment that I could glean some insight until I recalled the whole story and remembered that the narrator in the poem actually dies from fright. *sigh* My muse better show up QUICK because there's no way in hell I'm going to die from the fright of a sketchbook.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Thursday Shmersday

I'm excited for "Sparkles, Bikinis and Martinis" next week.....
I'm stoked to help support a few local ladies with some business. Lilikini, Hawaiian made bikinis and fabulous jewelry from Jodie Kanuha. The best part is that I get to hang out with a bunch of amazing and talented ladies! 

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Aren't these LOVELY.....
I'm itching to do something creative today and I think I am going to recreate one of these lovelies and add my own splash of fabulous to it. Nothing like a little art project to keep my mind off missing my mommy! 
Infinite X's and O's

Monday, October 4, 2010

A Hui Hou Lola

Someone is going to miss you SOOooooo much! We've had a great time and we already can't wait till we see you again!.....

OUR posse minus the lil one cause she's taking the photo....loved the beach days, cooking parties, wine on the lanai and dancing in the moonlight...
Abby and I can't wait till we skype and share a cuppa mocha while you let us watch it snow!
Travel Safe and we'll see you soon Lola!